After two weeks of writer's block, I skipped to the end of the book and wrote the last nine chapters or so. I had hoped this would help clear the block, but it's still as solid as ever.
I did continue on to write chapter 6, but I'm completely unsatisfied with it. I wrote it because I felt as though I was being lazy by not writing; I felt the need to accomplish something. The final product of doing this: 5,000 words of crap.
A lot of successful writer's have said that they are successful because they are doing something that gets overlooked: writing. Many hopeful new writer's spend far too much time reading about how to be a successful writer rather than actually writing. I completely understand where they're coming from, but can't understand how they can just sit themselves down and force themselves to write.
If I force myself to write, it shows horribly in my descriptions and flow. I have to WANT to write for it to be any good. I can't just make myself do it and expect the same quality of work. And how am I supposed to get in the mood to write with my brain stuck in this crazy fog?
I spent the last five days, writing out by hand, a 24 page outline for the third book. Well, that's all fine and dandy, but it does nothing to aid me with my current dilemma.
I'm really jonesin' for a mentor right now.
I can admit when I need help. And, right now, I need it desperately. I guess this is where it's nice to have an editor and a team of staffers supporting you and giving you insight. But I'm on my own, and whether I like it or not, I'm going to have to get through this on my own.
Wish me luck... no, actually... wish that my brain will clear up.
